Nerve surgery experience 😟😢😥😦😷😶😬😣

                                 YES I HAD NERVE SURGERY!!!!! 

1. What happened 
2. Why did have to get nerve surgery

I'll will answer thoese questions of course hehe I mean who wouldn't because if didn't then I would not be doing a blog on it hehe so how did it all happened ok 

Like too summers ago we had been practiceing for fair because we that year we just join 4-H 

An I was practicing backing up for showmanship an by the way one day our used to 4-H leader Lori broke her toe because her horse step on it "ouch!" Anyways I was backing chuck up an one time he put has head down an I didn't let go of the led rope an my shoulder did loud pop an mom first thought was it dislocated an by the way me an britt were born with elbows out sockit my is right an of course Brits is the no not right but left anyways it started to hurt from shoulder down to elbow an mom felt shoulder an u could hear it when popped an when she felt my shoulder it sounded like popcorn so of course she dropped off Rosie an Sarah an Britt they in 4-H with us also an then tooked to the ER an they give pain MEDs of course an after like what too sets of x-rays the ER doc witch was really big an all he said that it was dislocated an the give me verset witch i an Britt are  allergic to an mom seen him turn an jerk on my elbow after an unsuccessful attempt of getting the dislocated to him they were trying get to wake up an I started going into  seizures an they took me to the bemont children's hospital an >>> an then when they just about to it all over again then he said wait let get the pediatric bone doctor or whatever u call I just know how spell it hehe :) an he said now can planet see that this an old injury >>> an by the way I was so drugged an mad that I didn't even get cast hehe :) anyways he pich the nerve when he jacked up arm >>> to a year later I got test an all I got my surgery on June 24  an they give me nerve block an of course they knock me for that then they took me into surgery an for the nerve block they give me verset but no reaction from it thou  they give three more types of Anastasia ketamine,propfol an the stuff in mask thank God an omg talk about the pain the nurse said that it wrose then recovering from bone surgery I tooked that NARCO an TRAMUMADOL like it was candy but of course wait like too/one until the other drugs were out my blood thou >>>> thank Goodness I got that surgery otherwise I don't know what to do with out it plz comment below an God bless u
                                   I AM THE LORD GOD WHO HEALS U-EXODUS 15:26 my battle is 
                                                                   Is great :)

What my life is like having special needs????

  Well it is not whole different from a person with out special needs
 but I wo say that we all have some what of a special need in our life's l
cuz we have trouble's
 and ups and drowns in ours lifes because God has 
bless us with ups
 and drowns in our life's for a reason an maybe u may 
not agree with me 
on it an or nay go with
 me at the halfway mark I see has is 
our trouble's in life is Gods gift to us an he wants to use those 
to learn how to get though it an to learn life lessons so
therefore we all some kind of special needs in our life's, my life with
 CELEBRAL PASLY ADD HASHIMONOS-THYROYIO, ECT but I do 
let that takeover my life if I was't bron the way I was an am I don't know what I would do because  i thank God the 
Way I am born because being special needs don't make any difference from a perfect life because without my life being the way it is it would not make me who I am in life an I would't s
said u are perfect cuz everyone is my whole life is perfect and God did my sure of that I don't look at my sister (who is the same) or friends an fam any different then who they are cuz God said he says who we says we are ,
So don't look ur self as some one 
that ur not cuz God made u 
the way are for a reson.
                         GALATIANS 6:9: AND LET US NOT GROW
                                           WEARY OF DOING GOOD FOR IN DUE SEASON
                                                    WE WILL REAP IF WE DO NOT GIVE UP, 3 JOHN 1:4
                                                             I HAVE NO GREATER JOY THAN TO HEAR THAT
                                                                 CHILDREN WALK IN TRUTH.
                                                                       HAVE A BLESSED DAY,
                                                                             BLESSINGS,
                                                                                  ASHLEY 
                                                                 

 Me a few days ago....

   

IDOL WORSHIP....

 have ever thought about how does GOD think of u when put someone that u really like a person from a tv show,a band and u think ok this is so fun and u don't think how ur friends and fam ect ect really think of u when listen,talk about that someone before ur king an the very person made u for a reason and u are so ashamed of ur self after u start to think of oh I'm sorry im becoming annoying/a freak to u or and people in ur life an u start to think "oh wow my life sure isn't fun anymore now that I see my friends playing,talking about some fun things" and just wondering what they really feel like on the inside and their relationships of God friends&fam ect ect is or maybe u want kill urslef an think that is it so that people won't have to deal me anymore I kown what they are thinking "they are loving an sweet to me but I kown that don't like on one end of are relationship together" or maybe u going to church an getting saved over and over again but u feel like this oh I am GOOD I been saved an then just like u feel it feeling so much shame an pain in ur life not kowning what to do and then u find out how to stop an u are like " i can't stop I can't let it go it is to hard an I will just do it again anyways" here's my self experience with IDOL WORSHIP.... It started out with me watching "19 kids and counting" and then me getting each of their books an lil by when I really was obseesed with them I got of obsessed with their friends the bates of used to be on tlc "untied bates of America" and also of coming back on June 9th on UP tv "bringing up bates" and they were on the duggars show also an had their special called "bates baby makes 19" an then got even more obsessed with both of their friends and they had been on the duggars show a few timesTheir friends and then yup I got even more obsessed with all of their friends the allen family yup they also had special on tlc called "home sweet bus" and I just so very yucky an ashamed of myself and how God made for a reason an how God wants us to spread his word I wasn't enither of those I feel such burden in and on everyone even thou I pray and got saved over and over again I feel after a while that it wasn't doing any good for me and I was so ashamed when me and mom went and seen "THE BONTRAGERS" and after they were singing I was talking to "Becky" and "Marlin" and when becky said this "we do this for God not us" I wanted to cry it made feel like "wow my IDOL WORSHIPING is not bad it is REALLY BAD and One day I cry and cry because I felt so much shame as well as pain I couldn't even looked up the very word's IDOL WORSHIP or even pics of bible verses about idol worship I did but I don't look it them thou an then just in this month I had been saved and then like last week something just hit me and.... It happened I decided to quit my obsession kowning how yucky and ashamed it made feel an now I feel so much better in myself  I hope this helps u out in life YOU SHALL NOT MAKE IDOLS FOR YOURSELF OR ERECT AN IMAGE OR PILLAR & YOU SHALL NOT SET UP A FIGURED STONE IN YOUR LAND BOW DOWN TO IT FOR I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD-LEVITICUS 26:1 have a blessed day.

Blessing's,

Ashley

Here's my story......

While we (me and my sista Brittany) are adopted cuz are birth mom did want us she wasn't ready for us thou her huddy (Ryan) had just  had died in shooting and she just remarryed her hair huddy (Matthew) and she was only in her 20's and she didn't kown how to death with us so my mom (sherry) was good friends with her an my moms friend more like are aunt ( Dianne) found out about us in newspaper and then Mel call her an then it happened when we were only like three weeks old was the first time she seen us and God place us on this earth on :November 2nd 1998 like at ten @  night we were only @ 24wks I was (2lbs) and britt was only (1lb & 8oz) of course we had lots of problems such as.... HYDROPHCELUIS we had both types of it and Brit was bron with MECRA in her eye and she had grand-mil seizures we had lots of brain hemorrhages + lack of oxygen to our brain and we had an still have reflex and we are allergic to all antibiotics and and most medicines and BPD a lung disease in most premmies CELEBRAL PLASY or (CP) and   and for cureble type of HYDROPHCELUIS they wanted to put a shunt in us but they could't cuz we over the borderline of the HYDROPHCELUIS and we had they type of HYDROPHCELUIS that is in ventricelas  Kk mom when an MRI on us and oh and by the way this when were only The age of olny 7 ok so anyways the doctor dr.ham out of DMC Detroit medical Center he would't do until finally convinced him to do it at the last minute  and he was shocked the uncureble type of  HYDROPHCELUIS  was totally gone see what GOD can do it such shock to everyone like www.thebontragerfamilysingers.com/blog think we are much of miracle from God see how much of a miracle in God we are and we also have HYPHER Thyoridisum + when we like  others along the way in life to so yea 
BLESSED ARE WHO THOSE MOURN FOR THEY WILL BE COMFORTED-MATTHEW 5:4niv 
have great day 
Blessings,
Ashley